*NAME PROTECTED*: (12:49:59 AM)
you shoudlve gone to melted

+Solomon+ OH NO! I know too much! says: (12:50:21 AM)
nah

+Solomon+ OH NO! I know too much! says: (12:50:59 AM)
i'm not interested in rampant drunken teenage unprotected sex
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
momentary
i just had a thought
do the other letters ever feel depressed that the capitals are bigger than they are?
jealous?
are they role models?
do all the little lower case letters aspire to be upper case someday?
do the other letters ever feel depressed that the capitals are bigger than they are?
jealous?
are they role models?
do all the little lower case letters aspire to be upper case someday?
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Graces From Other Places
I had an interesting conversation the other night with some friends of mine (Silber and Ari) about my elementary school life, my friendship with Silber, and my current situation, and I just wanted to bring up some points that we discussed.
First off, I had a really bad time in elementary school. I took school really seriously, but I had a lot of issues in the Hebrew and Math departments, and got frustrated a lot. I was also depressed a lot of the time, and had some really difficult times with friendships and such.
I was a big nerd-I'll admit it. I played pokemon cards (although most people did then). I got really into neopets (yeah, I know, sacriledge). Most of my friends were nerds too. I got made fun of alot because I was pretty fat and slow. I tried to be friends with the popular kids, because I saw that's where the good times were, but I usually got rejected or used. My friend Silber was a really popular guy who controlled a lot of the cliques, and I eventually began to blame him for my harsh treatment.
I went to Hatikvah summer camp for a couple years, which I had hoped would make more popular and introduce me to new people-however I quickly developed a rep for being a bit of a flaky nerd, which ruined any hope of that. I made some friends, but I didn't (and don't) have enough connections with them to hang out with them back home. Maybe it was the wrong choice of camp for me-I had always assumed Hatikvah to be the best camp because it had all this cool stuff, like sailboats and etc. but I realize now that the people were more important and that I get along much better with some people who went to places like Miriam and Solomon Schacter.
Something happened around Grade 8. Maybe it was getting contacts (which would be interesting, like how women who get plastic surgery are amazed at how differently people treat them), maybe it was a smaller school, I don't know. Suddenly I started to become less of a loser. I got some friends who were cool. I felt part of the group. I got more self-confidence. I realized that Silber wasn't the reason I had had a bad time and that he was actually an ok guy.
I also realize that going to Jewish private schools for my whole childhood is probably not the best thing for me, socially. I keep meeting people outside of school who I like-the problem is that they all live too far away. Being so entrenched in the Jewish community has kept me from meeting people I like who live in Vancouver, and stopped me from becoming familiar with social groups outside of my own ethnicity.
The problem is I feel it's too late for me to make any big changes-my high school life, and most of my teenage years, will be frozen in stone the way they are. I have two precious years left of high school. I can't switch schools-it's too late for that, I need good grades for university. I can't go to camp, because it's already over. So it's my responsibility to get all of my aspirations for my teen years done in the next two grades (while still keeping to who I am-I can't let myself change because I'll never forgive myself): girlfriend, first meaningful kiss, moderate social status, close group of friends, special memories, etc.
I'd better get started.
Embark on this path
To a much greater future
Find my very own route
Currently listening to: Be Yourself - Audioslave (random, but fitting)
First off, I had a really bad time in elementary school. I took school really seriously, but I had a lot of issues in the Hebrew and Math departments, and got frustrated a lot. I was also depressed a lot of the time, and had some really difficult times with friendships and such.
I was a big nerd-I'll admit it. I played pokemon cards (although most people did then). I got really into neopets (yeah, I know, sacriledge). Most of my friends were nerds too. I got made fun of alot because I was pretty fat and slow. I tried to be friends with the popular kids, because I saw that's where the good times were, but I usually got rejected or used. My friend Silber was a really popular guy who controlled a lot of the cliques, and I eventually began to blame him for my harsh treatment.
I went to Hatikvah summer camp for a couple years, which I had hoped would make more popular and introduce me to new people-however I quickly developed a rep for being a bit of a flaky nerd, which ruined any hope of that. I made some friends, but I didn't (and don't) have enough connections with them to hang out with them back home. Maybe it was the wrong choice of camp for me-I had always assumed Hatikvah to be the best camp because it had all this cool stuff, like sailboats and etc. but I realize now that the people were more important and that I get along much better with some people who went to places like Miriam and Solomon Schacter.
Something happened around Grade 8. Maybe it was getting contacts (which would be interesting, like how women who get plastic surgery are amazed at how differently people treat them), maybe it was a smaller school, I don't know. Suddenly I started to become less of a loser. I got some friends who were cool. I felt part of the group. I got more self-confidence. I realized that Silber wasn't the reason I had had a bad time and that he was actually an ok guy.
I also realize that going to Jewish private schools for my whole childhood is probably not the best thing for me, socially. I keep meeting people outside of school who I like-the problem is that they all live too far away. Being so entrenched in the Jewish community has kept me from meeting people I like who live in Vancouver, and stopped me from becoming familiar with social groups outside of my own ethnicity.
The problem is I feel it's too late for me to make any big changes-my high school life, and most of my teenage years, will be frozen in stone the way they are. I have two precious years left of high school. I can't switch schools-it's too late for that, I need good grades for university. I can't go to camp, because it's already over. So it's my responsibility to get all of my aspirations for my teen years done in the next two grades (while still keeping to who I am-I can't let myself change because I'll never forgive myself): girlfriend, first meaningful kiss, moderate social status, close group of friends, special memories, etc.
I'd better get started.
Embark on this path
To a much greater future
Find my very own route
Currently listening to: Be Yourself - Audioslave (random, but fitting)
Sunday, April 02, 2006
blank
You know it's bad when you're listening to Nirvana's Something In The Way on repeat on your iTunes.
For hours.
For hours.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
If Only
I wish I could take my bicycle and appear at your house. We would ride to the beach on the road and sit on rocks and talk about life and how people think and talk and act and work. I wish I could be there with you now. It would make me complete.
I need that. But life gets in my way.
I need that. But life gets in my way.
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